Blog for February 14th, 2022
Happy Valentines everybody. I hope the day is good to you in whatever way you need it to be. I pray everyone finds the love they need. Wheater it’s from your lover, family or God. Today is my cousin’s birthday, of course I’ve always remembered her birthday, but this is her first heavenly birthday, so my thoughts and prayers are with her kids at this time.
On Saturday we said goodbye to my best friend’s husband, who is also our friend for thirty three years. I did not attend in person, it was in another state, so we watched it live stream and it was awesome. So honorable for him, beautiful flowers for a man of thirty-three years clean who has played his beautiful guitar in the praise and worship teams for over twenty years. He gave back so much to so many, what a great tribute they had, and my friend so felt so blessed by it. That is what I prayed for her. I felt blessed by his celebration of life too.
Meanwhile, life goes on and the Superbowl was all hyped up and it delivered. I had eight nieces and nephews there because of my sister Judy. They all have my heart and they are honoring their mom, my sister that passed last April. She was the biggest Ram’s fan of all time, since the 60’s. She used it as a way to have family functions and root for their team together. I was there for so many exciting gatherings. Great family bonding time and her legacy of doing that lives on. All her boys even have season tickets. So, the Rams going to the Super Bowl ten months after her passing was very emotional for most of us. I know it’s just a game, but it’s so many memories and family times shared. I miss those times. And yay! They won! That’s perfect.
Also, it has been a bit emotional around here with our grandson. He is in puberty of course, but it seems to be a bit more than that. It’s been stressful dealing with emotions and outbursts. He spent the weekend with his sister and her fiancé, his two favorite people in the world. But the fact remains that he has issues, of which his sister, having the same parents feels like that is his core issue. So do I.
The damage done to our children when we are using and in our addiction – our addict behaviors – are far reaching for throughout their life time. It’s not fair and it’s not right. This world is whacked anyway and not easy to deal with when we have everything we need for a healthy normal life. You throw chaos, fear and trust issues in that and they get all tore up.
Meanwhile, the repercussions come back on us. I got clean when my oldest child was ten. And of course, he had a few years of living in the insanity with me, and yes, it was pretty insane. Now, I had the chance with his son to try to correct my past mistakes. The problem is, this was not mine to fix. I tried to protect, love and care for him and keep him from living in the insanity, but he already had been around it enough for some damage to be done.
All I can say is that I do not have a magic formula, we’ve just tried to help him and do our best. But that’s not always enough. It’s something, but not enough. Only God can heal and direct a heart, get them on the right track and see them through to achieve their goals. With God’s help, we’ve come as far as with can with our sweet boy. Now it is time to let his dad and sister step up and help out. I believe they can help him in some ways we can’t. God will be there I know.
Who knows, maybe I’ll get hearts and flowers too. For now, I’m done with goodbyes, I want more hellos in my life.
Question of the Week: How is your Valentine’s Day going?