Blog for October 17th, 2022
Tolerance & Letting Go
My tolerance sunk quite a bit this last week. Due to other people’s meanness and behaviors. Actually, I always have low tolerance for that sort of thing, however, I have learned not to let it own me. Which means, I continue on with my life, doing what’s in front of me to do and letting go and giving it (them) to God.
I have a high tolerance for newcomers and kids, also sick and old and people who have been defeated and heartbroken by their circumstances. Like the death of a loved one, illnesses, loss of jobs, homes and so on. But I do not have any real tolerance for mean people.
Rude, disrespectful, liars, cheats, and thieves. People who withhold love and use it as a means of control. People who put themselves above others. I think you get the picture. Well, I’ve had to deal with such people for the last week or so and as much as I’d love to go off on them, I am praying and giving them God.
I have no tolerance for such things, but I do search for understanding. I am constantly asking “why”? Why would people want to be like that? If people don’t let me in on why they are being mean to me, I come up with my own ideas. In this case I thought up “maybe she’s on a diet that’s making her mean”. Don’t laugh, that happens, I was on one once that made me very grumpy. I didn’t even notice it until the secretaries at work pointed it out, dang! I also think it might be stress, from their jobs and life. Yet, we all have those things in our lives, and I do not believe it is a license to hurt other people.
When I have been in low tolerance phases one of the first places that it has been notorious for showing up at is in traffic. Yep, that’s me, stupid drivers get way on my nerves in those times. I’m happy to say, I am not handling it that way this time, there is growth. Lol. It also shows up in being short and grumpy with others, others that do not deserve it, so I must be aware and keep a check on where my tolerance level is.
So, what can I do? First and foremost, pray. Then do an inventory on myself. Write about it. Leave it (them) to God. We’re all better off in His hands anyway, even those that do us wrong. Or should I say, especially those that do us wrong. Then, I move on with my own life, trying to live God’s will for me and keep my side of the street clean. Doing the TCB thing.
I had the privilege of being ask to speak at a meeting last night a
t an NA function we attended, it was off the cuff because the person they’d ask did not show up, so I did it. One of the things I shared about was how I am in a “letting go and letting God” phase at the moment with family matters, but I said, “I am working on letting go and letting God”, then I said, “no, let me take that back, I’m not “working” on it, I’m simply giving it to Him, it’s like, either you do or don’t, there’s no work to it.” Just leave it (them) all with God, right where yours and mine troubles should be.
Question of the Week: How’s your tolerance level right now?
