Blog for July 24th, 2023
Preoccupation
Preoccupation is a huge indicator of addiction. If we are only thinking of is how to get the drug, the thing, the person, and what we’re gonna do with it and even start thinking about how to get more before we have what we want right now, then yes, I’d say there’s a problem at hand.
Some people are preoccupied with their jobs, their boy or girlfriend, their phones, their next vacation, or whatever obsession they have going. Anything from video games to fishing, reading, the list goes on and on.
Some people only think of themselves. But isn’t that what the whole getting and finding ways and means to use more is about? Us! What I want and what I can get, how to use and abuse people along the way in order to get what I think I got coming to me? Yep! That’s pretty self-centered.
Do you recognize any of these patterns? Well, lately, I do. It’s been all about the dragons for weeks now, but today I hope will be the end of it. I sure hope so. It is scary to face our addictions and to face dragons, but at this point, it must be done. I will bare my soul to a committee and then leave it. Leave it to God. Trust Him with the outcome. His will in my life is the only way I know to stop preoccupation with things that are taking up too much space and time in my head.
Today, when I go to face the dragons, I am taking a small smattering of knights in shinning armor with me for support and backup. I have learned that in this program, I do not have to do anything alone. I have learned from getting clean that we always have people who will love and support us.
I’m back and the knights showed up, I love them for that. The whole ordeal was an ordeal! I don’t think we took the dragons down, but I think there was some kind of an impact, maybe. Can’t be sure yet. No matter, it is good to know that we have support and people who love us.
Now, I am happy to say that my preoccupation can and will shift. I am going to focus on the things that make me happy and bring contentment and satisfaction. Not that I have to over do anything and ignore other things. There is a balance that must be kept, that must be adhered to, and that’s the way it should be.
I have many interests, family, friends, writing, health, reading, meetings and hanging out with my husband. We’ve been hitting a few movies and staying cool there. We go to meetings, to the kids and plan our vacations. Life is good.
I don’t like it when any One thing takes over my thoughts, it’s very isolating and non-productive. But I had to do what I had to do with the dragons and so I did. The rest is up to God.
The only thing I need to be preoccupied with IS my God. His will for me and mine. Which, I believe to be loving my husband, staying in recovery, and helping others.
Question of the Week: Are you preoccupied with something?
