Blog for April 7th, 2025
Still (40)
I am so thankful and grateful for my forty years of recovery. On April 1st, my clean date, I was in Anchorage Alaska, I had been attending a women’s NA convention, which was awesome. On that Tuesday the convention was over and so I went to a local meeting to celebrate that day.
The next day, I flew home and while on the plane, I went through my steps. I do that every year on my birthday, which is my clean time date. As I was writing out my steps, answering the questions, one word kept coming up, still. Because I am still here at forty years clean!
Starting with step one, yep, I’m Still powerless! Not just over drugs, but also people, places and things. Step two, yes, God can Still restore me to sanity. Step three, I do indeed Still turn my will and life over to God, every day. Step four, I Still have character defects, I’m Still human and make mistakes, but I’m still forgiven too. I Still get resentments; I Still owe amends from time to time. I Still get my feelings hurt. Step five, I Still share the whole inventory with my sponsor.
Step six, I am Still ready to have God remove my defects of character and Step seven, I Still humbly ask Him to remove my defects. Step eight, I’m Still willing to make amends to the people on my list. Step nine, I Still continue to make amends. Step ten, I Still take a nightly inventory and when I am wrong, I am Still willing to promptly admit it. Step eleven, I still pray for the knowledge of God’s will for me and the power to carry it out. And Step twelve, I am still willing to carry the message of recovery to addicts, hence the blog, and to practice these principles in all my affairs!
I still have goals and dreams, I still want to be with my husband, I still love him more than life itself. I still want to be with my kids and grandkids and my friends. I still go to meetings; I’m still of service to the fellowship. I still sponsor and have a sponsor. I still want to live in a world of peace and love where everyone has a safe place to sleep and good food.
I still clean my own house and cook for us. I still celebrate my people; I still love God with all my being and trust Him with my everything. I still go to church, I still worship. I still help out where I can. I still care what happens in this world. I still give God the glory for my forty years of recovery! Thank you, Lord!
Question of the Week: Are you STILL working your program?
