Blog for January 12th, 2026
Blessings & Curses
This has been another mixed bag kind of week. Kind of blessings and curses mixed together. I am going to start with not so good stuff. Being, my sister was taken to the hospital by ambulance, and they said her brain is bleeding, she has been in ICU nearly a week now. She is not doing good. Then a couple of days after she went to the hospital with brain issues, my sponsor was taken to the hospital by ambulance also with brain issues.
Meanwhile, I cannot go to either one of them in the hospital due to my husband’s illness, if I brought back any germs to him, it could be fatal. He has been struggling with his COPD exacerbation. This time of year, we do our best to stay away from crowds and germy places. To say the least I’ve been conflicted, yet it’s not really a hard decision. My husband is my priority at this time of course.
I have to wait and wait for people to send me texts or call with updates on them both. And we all know how slowly the medical testing and orders run. I have been given a lot of opportunity to practice letting go and letting God and remember my powerlessness. All I can do is pray for them and of course I do.
My sponsor and my sister both have the same sponsor. She is the woman with the most time in NA. My sister will have 45 years clean in a few weeks, my sponsor will have 50 years this month, and their sponsor has 55. These are the women who were there for me when I got clean. I love them so much and my heart is breaking for them. I have a lot of gratitude for them all.
During this past week as I was getting all this bad news, I was on a sweet little trip to the mountains with my kids. It was a super special time with them and I’m so grateful for it. I feel like we bonded some more, and we loved on each other. My son is a hoot, always wants to be funny. Three of my grandkids were there also, I call these three Group D. due to the order of their birthdays from our other grandkids.
It was nice to get away and of course, it being winter in the mountains, it was freezing but we had a cozy cabin, and we did well there. We played games, went to the bowling alley and went shopping. And of course, out to eat, it was all good. I am still processing the whole week, looking for the ways God was working in my life, lessons to be learned, blessings to be had and bad information.
My husband and I kept up with our daily meditations via my zoom and we kept in touch, he did pretty well while I was gone and I’m so thankful for that. I do see God’s hand in it all, thank you Lord. And then we went to our great granddaughter’s first birthday party for just a little bit. That was a beautiful blessing too. God is good, I know that.
So, what can I do about any of it? Pray, protect my husband. Do the next indicated thing to do in front of me. Today I went to our guideline review for our area guidelines. I am the one who does the changes and rewrites and sends them out to our members, so I need to be there. And I’m glad I did; it was good to be with some friends. They were all in a silly mood today and that’s what I needed.
I do not know what tomorrow, next week or next month holds, but as for me, as far as I’m able, I will continue to stay clean, work my program, trust God and give my loved ones to Him, He knows best. I listen and watch for His guidance. And then ask for the power to carry it out. Last month I said I am going to do a deep dive on step eleven, I had planned to start tomorrow, and I will, I need it more than ever now.
Question of the Week: What step do you like to lean on in times of trouble?