Blog for February 16th, 2026
Through the Pain
Disclaimer: I realize that there are all kinds of pain and for different people it affects them in different ways, different levels. Pain can be physical, emotional and mental and often times one affects the other. With that said, I want you to know that I will be sharing my pain of the last week, the last month even, but it is my pain. Not the worst I’ve ever had, this has just been my life lately and I always write about the last weeks’ events.
This last week was pretty uneventful; however, I am laying low as possible, due to winter germ season and my sciatic pain. Which has been such a miserable time, being in constant pain management. Just focusing on what I absolutely have to do. And mostly just sitting here or laying on the sofa or bed for pain relief on my back. Yet there’s still been plenty happening all around me. I’ve been to the doctor’s and had massages. I’ve had my grandson for a week, and he went back to his other home on Friday, I loved having him. I love that boy so much. We met with his school counselor for a checkup, and he is doing very well, so proud of him. And that concludes with my physical pain of the month. Hopefully this week I get some real relief by getting acupuncture. 😊
It’s the emotional and spiritual pain that has been hard to process while I’m in physical pain and feeling isolated. They set the date for my sister’s funeral and that is making it feel so real to me that I have lost another sister. My third sister. My brother and I are the only ones left. I am so happy to hear that he will be coming out for the services. I just want to give him a hug.
Of course, the memories are flooding my memories, and my nieces and nephews are putting up photos and videos that make me cry. Me and my sisters laughed so much when we were together. Even through the hard times we could always find something to lighten our hearts and troubles. My sisters could be hilarious at times. Lots of fun and laughter in our lives. We learned early not to take life so dang seriously, to try to roll with the punches and we all had plenty of punches, even in recovery.
Another emotional punch this weekend was that our grandson got married and did not invite us to the wedding. I don’t believe we would have gone, but it would have been nice to be invited. Again, we’ll just roll with the punches, and I will apply the spiritual principals and just continue working my program.
My problem this week is that I am feeling a disconnect due to the pain. Due to the isolation. I don’t really know what I expect from myself, but I do know that I will continue with my routines, especially my recovery routines. I go to zoom meetings; I’ve been of service to the area and my morning group. I talked to sponsees, and I’ve called my sponsor and my friends. I talked to my brother and yesterday, my beautiful daughter came over and I very much enjoyed her visit, it lifted me up.
I continue my focus on step eleven this month and on my job. I may have mentioned before that I work online. So, these things have helped to get my mind off the constant pain, the loss and concerns I might have about my body falling apart and other issues. The main thing I know to do when I’m in pain of any kind to pray and give it to God. Let go and let God still rings so very true for me.
I don’t know much, but what I do know is what I’ve learned in my recovery, “one day at a time”, “put one foot in front of the other, breath in, breath out and don’t use no matter what”. My sister is the first one to teach me about a lot of these methods for staying clean. And that’s just what I’ll do moving forward. I will trust my God with all my heart and lean on His ways. I will continue to trust the process, same as I always have. And the “Formula” that has helped get me this far: Go to meetings, check, get a sponsor, check, be of service, check, Give back to others/sponsorship, check.
With that, and the Lord’s help, I know I will make it through all this pain, and if you are experiencing any kind of pain yourself, I pray you too will be able to come out the other side and relish the days of your recovery and life. Today, I have been clean for 14,930 days, and I’ve trusted the Lord all of those days, no reason to stop now!
Questions of the Week: How do you get through the pain?
