Blog for August 25, 2025
Ruminating= to think deeply about something. – to contemplate, meditate, mull over, muse, ponder, reflect, think over.
Every year my husband and I go to the Southern California Regional Convention of Narcotics Anonymous, hence forth, SCRCNA. We’ve been to thirty eight out of forty years. One year, he talked me into going to see the Rolling Stones in Vegas instead. And in 2020, the Pandemic would not let it happen. So, with that said, yep, we just got back from the SCRCNA and I am ruminating (as I always do) on the speakers and messages of hope and recovery that we heard, and on the love, hugs, old and new friendships we experienced.
As I quite often am after the SCRCNA I’m on a bit of a pink cloud, I was filled up with camaraderie, love and hope for the future of addicts still out there killing themselves to have a new way to live, clean. Free from drug abuse and a life of hell. My prayer is that they all find this new way to live.
Now, I just want to sit in the quiet, maybe with a notebook and pen and ponder all the good things I heard. Granted, some of the “good things” come from out of the ashes of horror that addiction brings. Many of their stories are often too hard to listen to, but then, you wait through it and the miracle happens, the hope, love and healing. I need to ruminate on that. The goodness that this crazy world has to offer, if we could just find that goodness before the drugs take a hold of us, life would be so much better, so much easier and fulfilling.
I am grateful for every hug, smile and “love you” that I got this weekend. I am also grateful for our friends from our hometown that went there and hung out with us too. The laughter was in abundance and the caring and sharing. It’s especially sweet because I know what each and every one of them has been through, and the fact that we can laugh, smile, talk freely, enjoy meals together makes it just that much sweeter.
I’m going to start my ruminating now, feeling the feelings that the speakers brought to my consciousness, to my introspective soul. Not sure what to do with those thoughts and feelings, except to record them and see what step might apply to healing my inner psyche, child, negative thoughts and give them to God to help me heal. It’s all part of the process in recovery, with staying clean being the bottom line.
Question of the Week: What do you like to “ruminate” on?
