Blog for May 18, 2026
Releasing what keeps you bound
The Spiritual Principle a Day (SPAD) meditation on May 16th, The Freedom to Let Go was about letting go of people, places and things. And at the end of it gave this suggestion, “I will release something that’s kept me bound. I’ll let go of it daily if that’s what it takes to live free.” When I read it, I wrote in my little meditation book that I will let go of worrying about my house, clutter and stuff, and our property too. I also said, I would let go of worrying about my grandson. Because he is smoking pot now and hanging out with some drugies. I already pray for him everyday and give him to God constantly. I try to talk to him three or four times a week. That’s all I can do for him at this point.
But my house is a whole other story. My clutter has been a thorn in my side for longer than I can say. I have worked on it for years and got rid of a lot of clothes, books, shoes, files, all kinds of stuff. And yet, the saga continues and for me. Sometimes I just want to pull out my hair and scream. I’ve had to work my steps on this issue, call my sponsor, write about it, talk to my BFF, lots of times about it. I’ve prayed, made plans, read books, articles and watched many YouTube videos about organizing and decluttering. Personally, I’m fed up and sick and tired of it. I have had a few moments now and then about either blowing up my house or just to get high and forget it all! (But really, there’s nothing worth getting loaded over) Those thoughts pass me by quickly.
Yet, I keep on keep’n on. I try. I have to do a whole lot of back up and re-grouping. So, I decided to follow this meditations suggestion and let it go, don’t worry about. It’ll either happen or it won’t. I already have a newfound freedom as the meditation said I would. I shared about that at the meeting last night and a friend of mine in the meeting texted and said her daughter could help me. I have known her daughter for at least five years and she is a sweetie. Because she is the daughter of an addict, she had a rough start, but she has turned out to be goal oriented and graduation from high school in twelve days, with plans of moving and going to college, where she’s already been accepted. I’m so proud of her. She is another overcomer because of her mother’s recovery.
So, I did have her come and help me today and she was a great worker and very sweet. However, she is moving in a month, but for now, God has answered my prayers and if He can answer them now, He’ll answer them later too. I am letting go of this issue. I’ll just be me each day and do the best I can with whatever my Higher Power lays on me to do. I’m not sweating it anymore. For now, I am thankful and grateful for the situation. One day at time, it’ll happen and I will live free and easy, as God intended.
I know this may seem like a superficial problem compared to the horrors of addiction, but stuff like this can take us back out. Feeling like a failure, a lazy bum and incompetent can make me feel like I need to just chuck it all and take drugs that help me to not care. Which is stupid. I’d rather just let go and give my little petty problems to God and trust Him to work in my life. As He always does when I ask. That’s why I had to quit thinking of this issue as not significant enough to turn over to the Lord.
Whatever is bothering you, no matter how big or small the problem may seem, give it to your Higher Power, let go and let God have it. Really have it, don’t just pay lip service, quit worrying, planning, manipulating and scheming. (I’m talking to myself right now) And the thing is, once I get over this and I’m all straightened out, I can get on with my real life and all the things I’d rather be paying attention to. I feel like, when we are stoved up with worry and feelings of incompetence or failure, we cannot let our creative selves and our happy feelings surface. I often feel I am not worthy to go visit a friend, go to a movie or even a meeting if I didn’t get all my work done. If I didn’t reach some goal or completion of work (housework is never done) then I don’t deserve to go out and play, Humm, I wonder where that thought comes from?
No matter what it is that is keeping you bound: grief, school/graduation, work , kids, sponsees and sponsors, money matters, relationship problems or whatever it is, let go and let God, for real. Trust Him. And whatch your world come together, gently and perfectly.
Question of the Week: What is bothering you most at this time? Can you let go and let God?
