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Blog for June 21^st, 2021

Whatever!

     You ever feel like throwing your hands up and saying “WHATEVER”!! The world has been coming at you sideways, right and left and your Wonder Woman bracelets just can’t keep up with the constant barrage of problems being thrown at you at the speed of light, then it’s a “whatever” time!

     That’s been my week, in parts. There have been some good points, but the “incidents” and problems that are hurtful were heavy ones for me, for us.  They were the kind that attack the heart, painful to the core.  I’d rather have hundreds of problems with the house, the finances, the weather, the car, the TV, reservations or whatever, than to have problems with the affairs of the heart. 

          Well, I didn’t know what to do about any of it, so I did nothing, that is what I’ve been taught in my recovery.  When the problems we face are more than we can handle or more than we’re able to cope with, “be still and know that I Am”.  Wait on the Lord’s direction.

      Not even understanding the reason for an onslaught of attacks and pure meanness, with a heart that is breaking, it is best (for me) to do nothing. Stop and reflect, review, inventory (look for my part in the problems) and wait.

    As I reflect, I find I must lean on the “Whatever” of the whole situation and let go and let God.  Of them, of my thoughts and emotions, of everything.  I move on about my business and keep asking God for direction.  When the subject has come up this week my attitude was “whatever”, meaning, I don’t even care right now.

      But God has led me in a different direction, He led me to   Philippians 4: 8– brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think on these things.

      So, whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely and admirable. Wow!  Think on these things.  I’m think’n that as I think on these things, I want to think that I should strive for those qualities, especially in the face of turmoil and pain and even the little daily incidentals, like, “what’s wrong with the dishwasher?  Where is that book I wanted to give you?”  Dropping, spilling, tripping, losing, lots of things make me say “whatever”.  But the powerlessness of hurtfulness is probably the best time to think on these things. 

     I also want to say Happy Father’s Day to everyone, including single mothers that have to be both father and mother. To all the people who do not have a father, for one reason or another, I relate. My heart is with you. To all the fathers who feel shunned and ostracized by their children that they love so dearly- don’t give up, continue to stay clean, work a program and think on these things.  You never know what may happen.

     One more thing, happy 36^th anniversary to my awesome husband who is probably the only person who reads my blogs, so this is for you Love.  I love you with all my heart and I’m so grateful God put you in my life and we travel this road of recovery and life together.  My “No matter what” friend.  You are my true soul mate, love of my life, true north, road dog, side kick, better half. You are everything to me, may God bless and keep you always. I love you dearly.

Question of the Week:   Do you ever get the “whatevers?”