Clearing out the Cobwebs (and other things)
What an interesting week, again, lol. I had a couple of days of being with some beautiful, spiritual, like-minded women that really lifted me up. I would love to do that more often, but alas, it’s not possible at this time, but perhaps we could work towards that.
I needed those couple of uplifting days something fierce, due to the momentous project I found myself in the thick of. What kind of project is it you ask? Cleaning out my clothes, my closet and going through years of memories. About forty years of memories. The task has left me physically and emotionally hurting. So, time with those loving ladies was much needed and appreciated.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, I continue to deal with my overly abundant wardrobe. Grateful to give a lot of it away, at last. Giving is a good thing, downsizing is a good thing, clearing away the cobwebs, the past and useless things, are all good things. Now making room and space for the life we need to lead now. Also, I do not want to leave a mess for my kids to clear out.
In the program, we have a saying about “clearing away the wreckage of our past”, and I also say – our present, in other words, pick up after yourself. So, there you have it, I believe that is my motivation to get this all done and squared away. I have been
trying hard to get it done before my eye surgery tomorrow, which I have a little fear about, but it too is a clearing away of sorts. I’m having cataracts removed, they cause a cloudy view of the world, and I want to see things clearly. I am grateful that I can get it done.
I have worked through the twelve steps more times than I can count, approximately thirty-five times plus a continual tenth step that leads me back to any other step I might need in a certain situation. And due to my situations over the past couple of years I have been pushed back to step one time and again, as well as eleven at a much deeper level.
Praying only for the knowledge of His will for me and the power to carry it out. Step eleven has been and always will be a staple in my recovery. And thank God for it! I’ve had to dig deeper than ever these past couple of years. And what has it gotten me? A deeper trust in my God, a better understanding of His will for me. A clearing out of my old thinking and replacing it with a more positive feeling about my recovery, life and relationship with my God.
Due to my faith, my program and the steps, I’m becoming more and more able to let go and let God and trust Him with every outcome of every situation life throws at me, including my eye surgery tomorrow. I will let you know next week how it went. I wonder if I’ll be wearing my glasses to write next week! 😊
Question of the Week: Do you need to clear anything out?
